Honestly I dont know how I’m going to beat this.
I want to be thin and not eat and not exercise. But I love exercising.
I want to be fit but I’m scared I over eat. I want to eat but I’m scared I dont get to exercise enough.
Its a real fuckup.
I was thinking today, that I’m scared of failure. I’m scared to fail at things so either I don’t even try, OR, I self sabotage.
Am I scared of failing