You are what you think you are.
Decide, commit, act, repeat.
The billionaire and the beggar both have 24 hours in a day.
My drive for food is because my reptilian brain taught me that it makes me happy to eat. When I feel slightly sad, I eat. My emotional brain told me that food will make me happy because it allows me to escape the present moment. It allows me to * be sedated, as does getting drunk, and forget about what I am dealing with/feeling at present.
Your actions are not influenced by your thoughts, but by your emotions.
Thoughts come and go like clouds. You can be the silent watcher of your thoughts. How do your emotions take over? Your ego thinks your thoughts are real, your body connects to these thoughts, and then create emotional connections to them, that’s how.
“Do positive emotions then have the opposite effect on the physical body? Do they strengthen the immune system, invigorate and heal the body? They do, indeed, but we need to differentiate between positive emotions that are ego-generated and deeper emotions that emanate from your natural state of connectedness with Being.
Positive emotions generated by the ego already contain within themselves their opposite into which they can quickly turn. Here are some examples:
What the ego calls love is possessiveness and addictive clinging that can turn into hate within a second.
Anticipation about an upcoming event, which is the ego’s overvaluation of future, easily turns into its opposite—let down and disappointment—when the event is over or doesn’t fulfill the ego’s expectations.Praise and recognition make you feel alive and happy one day; being criticized or ignored make you dejected and unhappy the next. The pleasure of the wild party turns into bleakness and a hangover the next morning. There is no good without bad, no high without low.
Ego-generated emotions are derived from the mind’s identification with external factors which are, of course, all unstable and liable to change at any moment. The deeper emotions are not really emotions at all but states of Being. Emotions exist within the realm of opposites. States of Being can be obscured, but they have no opposite. They emanate from within you as the love, joy and peace that are aspects of your true nature.”
When I am sad/bored (and want to escape my current situation), I get a knot in my stomach (because I forget to be the watcher of my thoughts and stay present; I become anxious about what I have to/should be doing). The knot gets “taken away” by food – meanwhile it just sedates/distracts me from the present moment. I still feel like that once I’m done eating, unless I go to sleep and then I still wake up feeling like an asshole.
P.s. while writing this (a few days ago in my book) I had the urge to go get more food. I recognised, stayed present, WATCHED my thoughts, and in so doing I disconnected from it and it went away. Decide, commit, act, repeat.
*While writing I totally got side tracked and ended up on Facebook. Another escape = social media. I went for a day without it and felt so damn good. Perhaps I should delete it from my phone?